Paradox

I guess i was at the crossroad of deciding what should be my next step. I have been very pessimistic and 'delimmatic' too. I guess I like what i am doing, which is why it is not easy to give up, though i keep trying to convince myself to. On the other hand, i attend classes that i hope could enrich the different aspects of my aesthetical senses.. Guess that is the paradoxical of life.